43 and Pregnant
Yes, the news is out. I’m 43 and pregnant. I’ll be 44 when this baby is due and will probably be the oldest mommy on the playground. I realize that age should not be a factor when you’re relatively healthy but try telling that to my body. It’s tired.
Needless to say, this was not a planned pregnancy. Given the fact that I’m on the pill, my husband and I work opposite flying schedules, and just the absolute busyness of our lives this is pretty much a miraculous event. I’m still in shock. In fact, I recently gave away all my maternity clothes and baby items to a friend of mine. Do you think I can ask for it back?
Before I continue, let me say that I know that every baby is a blessing. Given the fact that we tried for years before we had Baby Bug and suffered two miscarriages (one in my 4th month) I know how truly lucky I am. I really do.
But is it so terrible to feel a little (okay, a lot) of apprehension about starting all over again? The sleepless nights, the feedings every 2 hours, the tons of equipment you need to take with you just to go to the store across the street? I mean, it was only last week that I finally took Baby Bug to the shopping mall without a diaper bag and stroller. I felt so liberated!
And what about the pregnancy? Unfortunately, I’m not one of those pregnant mothers you find glowing with radiance and excitement. Truth be told you will probably find me curled up in a ball on the floor popping my Zolfran and sleeping for 16 hours a day.
DH on the other hand it thrilled. In fact, he’s already thinking of baby names which is a miracle since I couldn’t even get him to talk about the subject until a month before both of my prior births. He’s so happy about this unexpected news that it’s all he can talk about. He’s really starting to get on my nerves.
I don’t know, I’m hoping that something inside me will eventually click and I’ll begin to feel what I’m suppose to feel – excited, thrilled, or even just happy. However, I know that once the baby is here, I’ll look into his or (hopefully) her eyes and know that my life is just the way it should be.
But until then, don’t mind me. I know I’ll have good days and bad days and I’ll try not to bore you with all the pregnancy details. Heck, I’ll be lucky if I can post at all.
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Thank you for all your well wishes and congratulations! It meant the world to me that you took the time to stop by and leave a comment. You guys are the best . . . really!
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Kailani is the owner and founder of An Island Life. You'll find her sharing her daily life as a mother to 3 wonderful daughters, working as a flight attendant, and living a blessed life in Hawaii. She is also the founder of the group review site - Family Review Network. Follow along on her adventure of a lifetime this Winter as a member of the Vaseline Dry Skin Patrol!