What A Difference A Year Makes
January 1, 2010 by Kailani
Filed under daily life, my family
Last New Years Day I remember being at home alone. Jon had taken the girls to the beach and I was not in the mood to go along. Instead, I spent most of the day on the phone with a guy named Tim who represents the company that handles my employer’s leave program. I had just suffered a miscarriage two weeks before and I needed to fill-out all kind of paperwork since I wasn’t ready to go back to work yet.
It was a difficult time for me but up until then I had put on a brave front. “It’s not like we had planned on getting pregnant in the first place.”, I would tell well wishers, “Maybe it was for the best.” However, it was this total stranger on the phone who told me how sorry he was for what I was going through that made me break down and cry.
I’m still not sure why I reacted that way. I think it’s because I expected my family and friends to express words of comfort but this random act of kindness from someone I didn’t even know caught me off guard.
Then a month later I found out I was pregnant again. My OB/GYN called Kaila our miracle baby since there was no logical explanation on why I got pregnant. After all, I’m in my mid-forties, I was on the pill, I had just suffered a miscarriage a month earlier, and I NEVER see my husband. 
The next 40 weeks were nerve-wracking – trying to stay positive but yet preparing for the worst.
On October 16th, I gave birth to a healthy baby girl.
So this New Years Day it’s a different story. Even though Jon is going to the beach with Kacie & Kiana again and I’ll be at home, this time I’ll have a beautiful baby to keep me company. No tears on this New Years Day . . . except tears of joy.
Spotlight Comment by Eryn @ Homeschooledyear.com:
Isn’t amazing how at the time, we wonder how we’ll get through something, and then it seems like suddenly a year has gone by?
I remember you losing your baby because a dear friend lost a sweet baby girl, then I lost a baby, and then you lost your angel, all within 6 weeks. None of us were planning for one, and we were all taken by surprise. It’s hard to process the pain when you’re still processing the fact that you are/were pregnant.
But it does remind me that even though it’s a great big world, as women, we are kinda connected to each other. Motherhood is an amazing bond. I’m tellin’ ya, the men just couldn’t handle it
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Isn’t amazing how at the time, we wonder how we’ll get through something, and then it seems like suddenly a year has gone by?
I remember you losing your baby because a dear friend lost a sweet baby girl, then I lost a baby, and then you lost your angel, all within 6 weeks. None of us were planning for one, and we were all taken by surprise. It’s hard to process the pain when you’re still processing the fact that you are/were pregnant.
But it does remind me that even though it’s a great big world, as women, we are kinda connected to each other. Motherhood is an amazing bond. I’m tellin’ ya, the men just couldn’t handle it
Kailani, as I said on Twitter (@leighbra), I hope 2010 is everything we’re all wishing for! Enjoy your beautiful family and all that you’ve worked SO hard for.
(And for goodness sake, Kaila is such a beautiful baby! That photo makes my heart so warm!)
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Congratulations!!!
congratulations on your sweet miracle baby! I hope that 2010 is filled with many wonderful things for you and your family!
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Your retrospect is just beautiful. The loss of even an unexpected miracle is still hard (I lost one that I really wasn’t sure what I would do w/ as a single woman but it still hurt) All my hope & wishes that 2010 will be just as amazingly wonderful as the end of 2009!
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She truly is a miracle baby and so adorable! I’m glad your New Year’s is a happy one this year
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Congrats! A year does a make a big difference! heres to a great new year!
I say this every year…but it’s amazing how quickly time flies!
Thank you for sharing with us your stories and photos that ultimately end up making us all realize how we are all blessed in so many ways!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
That is such a beautiful post-Sometimes, it takes a complete stranger to get you to open up because everyone and everything else is too close to home.
I’m so glad things turned out that way for you and that this year you have a smile on your face instead of tears in your eyes!
Happy New Year to you and your beautiful family
What a blessing and a miracle! My sister-in-law miscarried her first child and then immediately was pregnant with second and the again with the third. Wow.
It is so incredible to hear how many women have lost a baby. With all the advances in medicine, it is still one thing that is truly a miracle! With all the things that have to happen to get pregnant, it is such a blessing when we have a baby to begin with, then to have that taken away is so horrible.
Thank you for sharing your story it brought tears and joy to my heart. Kaila is truly a beautiful little girl that I am sure is cherished by your whole family.
May 2010 bring you love, laughter and never-ending blessings.
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It really is amazing to comprehend the difference time can make. Oct 16 is a magical day for me too – it’s when I became a mommy after years of waiting and disappointment. So happy for you and your new blessings!!
Hugs,
Holly
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aw you made me tear……what a cute picture!
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I was reading back to my old blog posts from last year, and I came across my request for well wishes to you for the loss of that precious little baby.
It tore at my heart just like it did a year later.
You are thought of and loved by people you’ve never met.
Have a wonderful 2010…. you are blessed
What a sweet post. I remember all your posts and the pain you expressed and I’m so happy things turned out alright.
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